i cannot believe that it is christmas eve. i know that sounds cliche, but where did the time go? we have had a wonderful holiday season full of lots of special reminders, lessons, and fun times with family and friends. our house is quiet this morning because everyone is sleeping in and enjoying the calm before the chaos of christmas eve and day. we all needed a good night's sleep.
we made the most of this past week to set aside some time to see friends and celebrate the season. i always love the week before christmas because all of the big parties are over, most of the shopping is finished and it is such a great time to have friends over and relax and enjoy the merriment with little stress. we had friends over last weekend, then a little get together on tuesday night, got to run errands and play with em all day on wednesday and then girls' night with liz and jules that evening. wil stayed home on wednesday to sign for a fed ex delivery. he was perfectly content to strum on his bass guitar by the tree and watch t.v. all afternoon.
later on wednesday afternoon, one of pb's good friends came to visit. they were having guys' night wednesday evening. liz and i ended up meeting them after our dinner for some holiday cheer. we all went back to our house and sat by the fire and christmas tree until about 2:00 in the morning...laughing, talking and just enjoying the time together.
pb had to be up early for a shoot on thursday morning and his buddy hung out here and read some medical stuff for school. he is about to begin his residency and it was interesting to hear the ins and outs of what he has been doing. he is a precious guy and has been going through a tough time. a recent divorce that has been difficult to handle in the midst of all of his career demands. i was busy emptying the dishwasher while he was reading when he stopped and walked into our kitchen. he had tears in his eyes. he just stood there and asked me, "do you ever get over it?" i was caught a little off guard. i stared back at him wanting to say something helpful or comforting. but all that came out of my mouth was "no." i wanted to reel it back in as soon as the word hit the air. then i said "yes, you will, but i think it is a process." about that time, one of his professors called to discuss what he had been reading so the conversation ended.
i left to go for a walk and my heart was just hurting for him. there was so much i wanted to say to help him out. i understand. and the holidays make things so much lonelier when you are going through any sort of hard time. i wanted to go back and say, "you will be ok. and yes, you will get over it. it is a process. and you have to know that and not let yourself get swallowed up in the emotion of it all. it's ok to grieve. you have to do that. and you will do it over and over again. but you will get ok."
this is such a priceless time of year and i have enjoyed the time with pb, wil and em, and our friends and family so much. but it is sobering to be reminded that even though it is the holiday season, people are still hurting. and they hurt even more during this time of year. my heart goes out to this friend and i am thankful that our family got to spend time with him this week. his laughter and good spirits were a bright spot for us and wil thinks he is the greatest.
so merry christmas eve and thank you to all of our family and friends that have made this a memorable week before christmas!
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