free your mind and the rest will follow

so we are on day 3 of no school because of the snow. on day one i was feeling very introspective. i should have blogged then. now i am just antsy and while not really ready to go back to school, ready for life to be normal again. i do think that the whole snow thing is god and nature's way of making us slow down. i think it comes when we need it and it is our cue to stop, look and listen to the things around us that we might otherwise be missing.

i had already been thinking about the word control before our snowbound vacation. control is something that i struggle with at times. when i feel like life and the things around me are out of my control, i will do something intensely, to get my mind off of it. the funny thing is, none of us is really in control. a good friend of mine and i have discussed this before because we share a lot of the same tendencies in this area. it is so crazy how one day i can be perfectly at ease, content and peaceful and then the next, feel terrified that life is going by way too fast. that is when i feel out of control. none of my circumstances have changed from one day to the next, really. it is just all a matter of perspective...and hormones, i'm sure.

wil just turned 15. how can that be? this is when i get freaked out and think about how fast life is changing, and about all of the things i don't want to miss with him. i was sitting next to him in the car last week...in the passenger's seat. no control. he was doing everything right. but i kept catching myself asking him if he had looked both ways, signaled when he changed lanes and various other laws he needed to heed while driving. i am trying to have a little faith, watch him, and keep my mouth shut until i need to remind him of something. no gasping and no breaking with my foot when he is the one in control of the break pedal.

i'm glad the snow was out of our control. we needed to slow down, have no distractions, and have to rest. slowing down helps to put things in perspective. life doesn't feel so out of control.

is it 5:00 yet?